last day

well... today is the last day i stay at my hometown
means i gonna back to kk 2moro
after this holiday, i need to wait until end of november then can get my sem break
so i think i will feel extra EXHAUSTED in this two months
miss the soup n dishes cook by my mum
miss my bed, my plush toys~~

quite emo recently... juz like the weather at sdk here
sometimes sunny, sometimes rain
juz bcoz of one person
but in overall
actualy i'm not happy during this holiday
as i had said before
when the 2nd day i back to here

i dnt know why this holiday will make me so tired
and i start feeling many things dont know how to share wif ppl
talk to myself is a best way
or wat i feel wat i want to say out
i juz write at my blog
yea... my blog~ my lil space juz for me to express myself in a relax way
nobody wil stop me, or nobody will give me comment that i dont want to listen
i juz can be myself at HERE

now, i try to understand a ppl that i very care
sometimes, i reli cant get what is inside his mind
alth he always say i can get what he thought in juz a moment
but... until yday i juz realise
actualy i not very know about him

sometimes can be very mad
sometimes juz ordinary, nothing special
sometimes get angry very easy
i feel... very scare
worry
i dont know how to say
is juz... a feel that i never try before
with him, i always need to try my best to console him
standby his side, so that if he wan to fa xie
then he can direct come find me
haiz...
i dont know i can endure until when
actualy i will not call it as 'endure'
but juz mayb i wil take it as a process to let me know more about him
and get closer to him
try to get what is him thinking actualy
and i hope i can try my best to help him
maybe what he annoy and the sadness store in his heart are countless
i always think that my suffer are enough big for me to withstand
but he tell me that there are a lot of ppl at outside are suffering more than me
yea... i guess u'r right~
thanks for telling me that
so now i hav enough faith to stand up straight
to face the challenge n unknown wonders that coming for me


p/s: if u hav read this blog, pleasa smile for me. ^^

背叛，信任

今天早上起来的时候
感觉自己有好多话想对自己说
是的 对自己说
任何的人都不是你值得倾诉的对象
只有自己才是最了解自己的人

相信一个人是很容易的事情
当你带着一颗真心去结交另外一个朋友的时候
你也期待着他会以同样一颗真心去对待你
你相信他
信任他
你不曾带着任何一点怀疑
因为你相信
他就像你一样
可是现实往往都是那么残酷的
绵羊永远都不会知道
狼总戴着面具去接近它
也不晓得自己什么时候会有生命危险
就是那样傻傻的相信
披着面具的狼会像它家人那样对待它

我就是那支绵羊吧
天真的我
以为世界上真的会有好人
在我离开了家乡以后
来到陌生的地方
有人会对我伸出援手

哈哈 我真的是很天真
现在回想起你对我的好
我很想笑
但我也觉得很心寒
我曾告诉别人说
你是我遇过最好的学姐
帮我买面包，借我参考书，借我broadband, 教我做功课
原来一切都是假的
没多久之后你竟然告诉别人甚至是讲师
我和你借power point, 和其他过分的要求
哈哈哈哈哈
这是我听过最好笑的笑话了
笑死我了

我不知道我哪里得罪你了
你什么要这样陷害我
关于陌宏学长那件事
是我和他之间的事情
你为什么要把事情弄得那样复杂
把原本很小如芝麻的事
弄得沸沸扬扬
现在senior全都和我有瓜葛了
我也成了大家的眼中钉
你很开心吧?
这如果是你要的
恭喜你
你的愿望达成了

我要谢谢陌宏学长
虽然你不可能会看到我的blog
但是我还是在心里对你说声谢谢
因为你没有像他们那样做
还替我解围
谢谢你
还要我要向一位同学说声对不起
因为我误会你了
绣桦 真的很对不起

我现在真的松了一口气
我选择诚实地面对自己
我不想再逃避了
我要谢谢那些伤害过我的人
因为你们让我上了很宝贵的一课
我已经学着成长了

smile always

today, chat wif my dear, knw he is facing some problem wif his frens~
well... although i also going through the same problem, but,
dont knw why my heart is feeling more annoyed..
Is because he feel ANGRY n SAD just because of the case ma?
haiz... i always tell myself that become a human is not as easy task~
i had left my hometown n pursue my DREAM as a teacher at this maktab GAYA...
but... since there are many unexpected condition happened to me,
i had few times decided to quit in this career.
am i stupid? weak?
i, myself even dont know how 2 handle my problem.
like a ostrich, juz wil know run away from the reality n don wan 2 face it.
hahaha, funny right? as a teacher should knw face the problem n try 2 overcome it. but me? NO

i feel sorry to u, coz... myself even dont know how to solve my ownself problem
so, when u told me about the argument between u n ur frens,
what i can do is silent listen to u, n try 2 make u smile only~
i feel myself useless, then u told me that u dont wan me think that way
sorry... i juz.. very sorry
hope u can smile for me...
my heart wil happy juz bcoz of u happy
if u angry or sad, i wil follow too

days are getting harder n harder
stil left 4 days i will bak to kk again
happy or sad?
i don know
days for me to do scanning are getting shorter
i tell myself no nid to worry
but... after a moment then wil start panic bcoz of that
haiz~ hope myself wil reli nothing
i hope what the doctor told me that day was juz a dream
after woke up, then everything is fine
GOD BLESS ME

21 September 2009

hmm... today is the 3rd day i stay at my home~
feeling very boring n lonely aithough wif my family...
dnt knw y wil got tis kind of feel, before i back to sdk here i hope can faster back here de.
but... after i reli back here liao, then my feel lain pula~
i seems more miss the days at kk there. haiz~ me so mao dun la=.=

miss shiling them very much...
espeacially big yai yai^^
this kind of missing feel, long time no appear in my heart
big yai yai, i wan tell u that i very very miss u de.
juz sometimes myself oso dnt knw how 2 express my feeling
tell u hor, me at sdk here oso everyday countdown to meet u~
today is 21 sept, so, we stil got 6 days then can meet again
dnt knw how is the feel when u first sight see me at airport? hehe

today u went to labuan liao, hope u wil enjoy ur trip at there.
must always take k urself if i not beside u, ok?
don 4get take super gud care of ur ankle ah, i knw it wil very pain de lo~
without me, u must very suffer rite?
after back kk, let me man man syak u lo. PROMISE U

i suddenly heard 1 song... inside the lyric seems telling about my story
after listen will feel my heart comfort a bit like that

心墙 郭静

一个人眺望碧海和蓝天
在心里面那抹灰就淡一些
海豚从眼前飞越
我看见了最阳光的笑脸
好时光都该被宝贝因为有限

我学着不去担心得太远
不计画太多反而能勇敢冒险
丰富地过每一天快乐地看每一天
第一次遇见阴天遮住你侧脸
有什么故事好想了解
我感觉我懂你的特别

你的心有一道墙
但我发现一扇窗
偶尔透出一丝暖暖的微光
就算你有一道墙
我的爱会攀上窗台盛放
打开窗你会看到悲伤融化
你会闻到幸福晴朗的芬芳

pretty saturday

Thank God for safety send me bac to my hometown...
i feel very relief since i walk down from the flight n arrive at sdk airport~~ hehe
hope my tis hari raya holiday wil relax n enjoy, most important is my mind dnt bother from any burden of my s**t assignment. lolx

the first thing since i arrive is find big yai yai, hope he wil not worry me anymore since i inform him i had arrive here safely~ i must keep the promise de, belief me, ok??

yday, is very memorable n wonderful 2 me alth it is quite tiring... i had went to doulas the book ship during noon time. Before went 2 doulas ship me n big yai yai had went 2 Mc D da bao burger n french fries as our lunch coz we tot tat thr wil no lunch provided near the doulas ship...
who knws after we arrive at thr then we realise pizza hut n kfc got stall at thr can provide lunch for visitors~~ ogui la... so ma fan his frens send us to Mc D da bao ooo~

then then then, we had went to 1B again...
he knws shopping is my favorite activity, so he never say tired when accom me shopping...
hehe, thank u owh, big yai yai~~
we had bought sweets marshmallow n plaster at minitoons thr( the plaster is him force me 2 buy de coz he worry i wil always get injured at my body) hahahaha XD
big yai yai u no nid worry me always lo, i very guai wil take k myself de, ok? ^^
n he had help me buy the nike water bottle, it is pink n purple in colour de,
is my favorite colours~ haha XD

at nite, we had went to tanjung aru beach to play water along the seaside n dinner at thr...
such romantic scene had make me fall in love wif tat place~~
we play water along the seaside n i had many sweet memory wif him at thr, all the annoy n worries had let me kick into the sea water n flow away liao...
we left many our footprints at the beach also~ hahahahaha

p/s: actualy thr is nothing for u to worry abt me n him de~ he forever oso is my lil bro, or my dad, so... pls dnt think much abt it lo, ok? i think the message frm him is juz a kidding. juz put down ur heart n relax~~

Rainy days please dnt go away~~

hmm... today, can consider as a memorable day since i came 2 kk~~ hehe XD
hw to say ler? erm... i think thr is no way to let me say out my feeling ooo,
juz... very happy...
n my face is full of smile during the whole day~~
u can feel it de rite?? big yai yai^^
i... seems to be more like u liao... hehe...
my heart will feel secure as u beside me de, u knw ma?
and... i like the way u tell me story or other things...
no matter is abt all the annoy ppl or about urself~ keke
and, the journey when we back to maktab, i think 4 of us are happy de...
although it is raining tat time, but... is juz like a sweet dream
he holding my hand and told me something tat i never expect~
feel very touch and sweet although very paiseh

juz receive the news about tis friday is holiday... hooray!!!!
hahaha me n my roomates keep shouting at our bedroom~~~ like kihsiao liao hahahaha
don send us into bukit padang if u had read my blog wo XD

2.4km!!!

hmm... 2day reli damn tired de ooo~~~
after pj for 3 and half hours then direct go padang run for 3 rounds~~
i think i had run 1.8km in 17minutes liao~ but... sadly, it stil not enuf in my fitness test during october... haiz~
cham lo cham lo... T.T `
who can tell me hw to run 2.4km within 14minutes???

after run padang then we continue play bball wif my gangz... hahaha...
hmm... anyway i nid 2 thank some1 very much... thz for accom me always ooo~~~

laz nite... had a sweet period in bball court~~
alth very paiseh, but i stil feel sweet bcoz of u o, big yai yai~~ hehe^^

but anyway, next time dnt hold my hands in public or sch area ooo...
so paiseh la, i wory wil more lecture knw abt us ler... hahahaha

p.s.: i wil bliv ur fairy tales la, so plz tell me more abt it ooo~~ hehe

huhuhuhu

hahahahaha.... finally i finish my bc assignment lo... feel my shoulder not tat heavy liao...
haha i think 2nite i can sleep well n sweet dream lu^^

thx to all guyz tat help me in finish my tis hard task~~~ it really suckz n takes me long time n energy to complete it T.T

now, is time 2 write my zhou ji liao... i need continue gambateh lo~~ gud luck to all my dearest frens which stil hard work in complete assignment... i knw it wil make us moody but in order to take higher marks in our exam, it is worth to spend more time wif it~~

well... i nid to stop blogging at here lo... there is much more assignment n homework waiting me 2 go through~~ jia you lo, jia min^^

快乐

快乐是可以分享的
快乐需要一些过程
快乐总是能被记得
因为记忆只留下美好的
何必写那么难演的剧本
别怪话说的太多了
我只是不要你不快乐
被爱应该是幸福的
去爱没有想像的愚蠢
相爱可以非常地单纯
因为爱全是与生俱来的
你问我怎么那么神
这些智慧该如何才获得
爱你我认识了快乐
它带我上了难得的一课
有了你开心d
乜都称心满意
咸鱼白菜也好好味
我与你永共叙
分分钟需要
你你似是阳光空气
爱你我认识了快乐
它带我上了难得的一课

p.s: 谢谢你让我在痛苦中学会了快乐

satur~~day

well... 2day quite early woke up in the morning... abt 7.30am i was blur blur open my eyes thn go to wash face liao~
tat is bcoz nid early wake up 2 rush assignment n 2day my college hostel gt wat such stupid competition.. we were forced 2 woke up 2 clean our own room n the corridor outside.. hai~~~

later aftenun wil go hang out wif my gangz at centre point n warisan square~ hahahax
i think tis is the most enjoyable moments throughout the day.. coz we had been traped inside the college for 5days liao.. is time 2 relax n hav fun^^

well... i nid 2 start conutdown for raya liao.. coz i wil bac to my hometown n can hav a break wif my family lo~ hahahaha is too hard to describe my feeling liao

anyway i wil stop blog at here liao... coz i nid 2 continue gambateh for my assignment lo... if not monday i wil die at tanjung aru beach XD

wat a tiring day

juz finish moral class... but 2day din hav lecture coz she was attended a meeting at tat time... we all bentang by ourselves during the kuliah~~ but some funny ppl keep disturb the ppl bentang in front so some funny scene happened... lolx

feeling tired n boring of tis kind lifestyle... everyday keep repeating the same thing~
sleep, wake up, go kuliah, pj, gerko, assignment, wash cloth, dinner n sleep~~~
arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

actualy... my heart gt a bit not feel well de. i dunno wat is my situation~
fren? couple? or juz ai mei???
myself oso dunno... hw foolish